Getting Closer....

Holy smokes, I'm 30 weeks pregnant! I know I said in my last post that time flies but when you count weeks throughout pregnancy, they really just go so fast. I can't believe in less than 2 months, we will be a family of 4, and I could not be more excited as well as ready to not be pregnant anymore!!

I had a check up with my midwife today and as she greeted me she said, "So you are at the point that you absolutely hate being pregnant and wish your due date was tomorrow, right???" Could not have said it better myself! She continued to say that the second time around seems to always be rougher and when you are 30 weeks, you feel as if you are 40 weeks with the same aches and pains and overall "done" feeling. This pregnancy has been so completely different and as everything was almost roses with Norah, this time I'm really just feeling so negative and so "over it".

I'm also having a very tough time with my energy and motivation levels. Nap times are usually my time to run around the house and get all kinds of chores accomplished in a quick amount of time. When nap time occurs now, I either nap as well or just find it really hard to do anything but sit down for a bit. Now everyone that I speak to recommends me doing this, even if I don't bring it up, but it's very hard to not feel guilty about it when I'm a stay at home Mom and feel that my job is to take care of my child AND my house! I also have animals that drive me absolutely insane and make things more complicated. During today's nap, I actually did a little organization and cleaning before I sat down here, but as I'm trying to do these things the dog is begging to go outside, the kitties are begging for treats, and then I'm cleaning up cat puke!! Annoying!!!!

I know I'm venting today which is usually not what I want this blog to be about but I always feel that putting out the frustrations of being a Mom can only help another Mom who is equally feeling as guilty as I am to be feeling this way. AND I can not wait to meet my new little boy, I'm just done with the gestational part!!! :)

I will end on a positive here and show you some pictures of Miss Norah visiting her new friend Baby Declan! She has been able to visit him a few times now and sort of get a preview of what's to come. Thank you Kelly and Tim!!! This last visit she decided to jump in his bassinet while I was holding him and then got wrapped up and coddled by her Auntie Courtney!

I really love the look on Norah's face here! I think it describes perfectly how she is feeling about Baby #2!! Uh oh!!!!  ;)

A New Year...

Time really does fly and it especially flies once you become a parent. This is really the time in life where you want things to SLOW DOWN and yet it all seems to go faster. Our little Norah just seems to be getting bigger and bigger every day. I swear this morning that she had so much more hair than when I put her to bed the night before! I can't believe what a little person she is becoming and how much independence she already craves. Pretty soon, it will seem as if she doesn't need me for anything..and gets annoyed that I'm even trying to help her! Good thing our little son will be coming in a few months (another time flying realization) and we will be starting it all over again!!! :)

I hope everyone had a great holiday season. We spent a great week in New Jersey with Kevin's family and were able to have a few "Mommy and Daddy Dates" thanks to the help of Grandma and Grandpa Lowery. That is really so important to have and something that will probably be even fewer and farther in between once the baby comes. We had a very relaxing New Year's Eve back at home where we opened our Christmas presents and spent some time cleaning up the house and playing with all of Norah's new toys.

I just can't believe that we had a baby in 2010 and now we will be welcoming a new baby in 2012! Although this was a little sooner than planned, we couldn't be more excited to have a family of 4 soon and to be having a little boy to experience all kinds of new things with! Of course, I have high hopes for my self for the new year as well as my family. Basic things.. better health, better organization, better financial planning, etc. But I really just want to try to take on the challenges of having a newborn and a toddler and all of the emotional turmoil that comes right after you give birth! I'm ready to not be pregnant anymore (no offense little guy, it just seems like it's all I've been doing these days) and I'm ready to have more energy back and less hormones!!! If anything a new year gives us all hope for change and a fresh start at our life. A way to make up for things we didn't quite previously get right the first time around. Parenting has a lot of those moments and I guess just being an adult does that to you too! I hope everyone stays strong to your "resolutions" and has a great 2012!

Happy New Year!